Honesty (Write Me A List) Blog

“Honesty, sincerity, tenderness, and trust, a little less time for the rest of the world and more for the two of us, kisses each morning, ‘I love you’s’ at night, just like it used to be, the way life was when you were in love with me.” Rodney Atkins sings these lyrics in one of my favorite love songs, Honesty (Write Me a List). I enjoy this song because I have been in a relationship which made me wonder, “What happened?” This guy, Zac, whom I dated, would often lie, not only to me, but to his friends and family. Not knowing how to handle this situation, his parents and I would talk regularly just to be sure we were on the same page if he failed to relay any small but important details. Because I learned that I could not trust Zac, I knew he wasn’t being sincere and loyal in this relationship. His ex-girlfriend would continuously harass me saying that Zac was cheating on me with her and that he tells her he loves her. When I would confront Zac about it, he would, of course, deny the accusations and assure me that he would talk to her. A week or so later, she would start it all over again. I remember listening to this song and then thinking about Zac and I being in love and getting married. I recall letting Zac listen to these lyrics once when I was concerned about our relationship. He was always spending a lot of time with his friends, drinking and smoking, and his family was very worried about him. They kept encouraging him to spend more time with me, and he was okay with it at first, but after awhile he realized how much he missed those friends and the things they had shared with him. Our relationship was very nice in the beginning, just like most of them, but he soon started blaming me for being controlling and keeping him away from his friends. We broke up, but then he apologized until I broke down and forgave him for everything he had done and said. We dated for another week or so before I caught him red-handed, cheating on me with his harassing ex-girlfriend. It was at that point that I realized he was not worth my time no matter how many times he apologized.